This one is for you

I remember the first time I ever read this. It was not very long ago, but it feels like ages - maybe a year and a half ago. I was really interested because the typography of it just looks like it will be something worth reading. After reading it, it made me really sad. About everything. It made me sad like it actually happened to me, and then I felt even worse because it didn’t. I realized that nothing ever happens to me. Soon after I got into a relationship. It wasn’t even a good one, it was just the type that makes you feel good about yourself  but then becomes a chore later. After that relationship ended I got the idea that I don’t need anyone because I’m young and I have nothing to prove to anyone. But now that time has passed and I’ve had this singularity I feel wrong. Instead of being independent as in confident - I’m cold. I don’t want people to waste my time. I’m selfish and mean and I hate it. I hate being this way. I want someone to want to know who the compassionate, sweet person I am on the inside, but no one does because I’m a bitch on the outside.

Anyway, this really made me think a lot.